Alone
Ansley Crabtree
A hindrance of the enemy revealed
I wanted to share something the Lord has revealed to me about myself, but I know others may have this same problem. I have fibromyalgia and sometimes last year the Lord moved upon my brethren that it was now time for the Lord to heal me. The day we were coming together was awesome. I saw an angel of the Lord who had been sent for this purpose. That night when we all got together, the presence of the Lord was so strong, I just new this was it. Well months later I am still not healed. Obviously I have been very troubled by the fact that I have not been healed when I know in my heart it is past the time for my healing.
We have continued to pray and my sister started seeing something in me that was hindering my healing. She saw a black wall around me. It was made of something as weak as crafting wire and covered with darkness. I could have easily broken this wall. She said that when we prayed a small hole would be opened up but would close almost immediately. We were on the phone when this was being revealed. As she was talking I saw a dark angel standing in the corner of my room and he threw a black blanket over me and covered me up. I didn’t tell her what I had seen and she said she felt like this thing was being thrown over me.
We continued to pray for the understanding. I knew this dark angel was still there because the Lord had not dealt with it. The other morning I was praying about it and the Lord told me to ask him (the dark angel) what he was doing. I sometimes still get amazed that they have to actually answer me in the Lords name. He said I have kept you alone and whispered in your ear your whole life that you need no one. I have made you like being alone. Alone you are weak. It has been my job to keep you weak. If you can’t receive from others you will remain weak.
As I listened to him I became so angry because this is how I have been my whole life! Even when I was in high school I never wanted to marry or be around anybody when I got out on my own. I had visions of myself buying a small home deep in the country so I could be alone! I had the same desire when it came to my healing. I wanted no one involved. I wanted it to be just me and the Lord. Because of this I couldn’t receive my healing from my brethren. This dark angel or you could say an “angel of light” has deceived me my whole life. I thought all of his counsel was good. I realized this blanket or wall was where I was comfortable. I was alone and I was comfortable with it. My comfort zone was nothing but deceit.
Then the Lord spoke to me. He said I have made my gifts to be received through your brethren. We have our relationship one on one, but my gifts come through your brothers and sisters. I so desire for my people to walk in my blessings and I am going to reveal all that has hindered this from happening.
1 Corinthians12:20-21 amplified bible
And now there are [certainly] many limbs and organs, but a single body.
And the eye is not able to say to the hand, I have no need of you, nor again the head to the feet, I have no need of you.
This is what this “angel of light” was able to make me believe that I don’t need anyone and I don’t need the gifts in other people because it is just going to be me and the Lord. Each one of us has our own personal relationship with the Lord but he wants us to be blessed by one another. I saw that this was a major assignment from the enemy to keep me from receiving blessings from the Lord. The more we can receive from Him, the stronger we become. Our faith is increased. A strong man is strong in faith.
Romans 4:20 (Amplified Bible)
No unbelief or distrust made him waver (doubtingly question) concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong and was empowered by faith as he gave praise and glory to God,
The Lord is here to pour out his blessings and the enemy is here to keep us from receiving them. It is my desire to expose the enemy so my brethren everywhere can be blessed. Hindering forces are there and I hope this will expose one of the things that are done to hinder us from receiving His love. Once the enemy is exposed, he loses power
Love and Blessing
Ansley Crabtree