YES, LORD there are times where I can only sit and ponder at what is swirling around me. To see the culmination in "present knowledge" of the world being conformed for the "END TIME GAMBIT" just as IT WAS WRITTEN. And then to be still as the MOST HIGH breathes upon and into me "revelation knowledge". As one mirrors the other I still have that remarkable sense of wonderment and still look upward and ask "why?". ABBA never seems to tire of hearing my "why LORD" 's. you would think maybe I would have outgrown it by now. When I first called upon HIS NAME I had so many "whys".... And too many 'whines' too. And HE put up with it all to a point. Now my 'whines' are much fewer...but I still fall too often.
But why seems always on my mind. There was a time where every day something would push a button and I had to ask. In my 'youth' I ran an emotional gauntlet, as I would hear things spoken/taught that I could not accept.
Sometimes it was a simple lack of knowledge...and sometimes it was discernment simply lacking foundation or focus. To "know" something is wrong without seeing the error is frustrating. The expected outcome was to go to the one who always knows, ABBA. And if I did not seek ABBA I would find myself reacting out of my emotions. anger, fear, confusion. In other words 'offended'. Every time I heard the WORD twisted to manipulate the sheep...everyt ime I heard the WORD corrupted and defiled to sell an idea...every time I saw HIS SHEEP USED, ABUSED, and REFUSED I wanted to react in like manner. But that was not ABBA'S WAY. Vengeance is HIS ALONE... so I learned to stand watch. So I learned HIS WORD AND HIS WILL. And HE taught me to respond, not to react. To respond to the needs of HIS SHEEP when and as HE directs. To respond through THE WORD and THE GIFTS. To intercede before HIM. To STAND and to WALK.
Fear of the LORD.... Kneel in silence before HIM and ego shrivels. Stand before HIM to give answer to HIS complaint.... Yes you are obviously 'dead'.... But HE listens and instructs...HE chastens because HE understands us far beyond our comprehension...and this brings WISDOM by which discernment is honed and tempered in HIS FIRE. Do I still get offended...not really, "dead" men can't be offended...can't have an agenda...can't have preferences as we think of them...can't have any human emotion... but I have never cried and grieved like I do now...I have never laughed and rejoiced as I do now...nor have I seethed with anger as I do now.... Because it is HIS HEART I feel beating and HIS thoughts that run through my mind. Yet I still don't like to wait...still feel lost and frustrated and vulnerable and powerless and alone at times.... But it just makes me run faster to HIS ARMS...
so strangely, at least at the time, on the first Sunday in January as my pastor preached his "STATE OF THE CHURCH" address ABBA and I began to remanis about all those cute 'sayings' man has come up with as their pet slogan for the year. I remember the banners I’ve seen and the tapes I’ve heard pushing religious sound bites.... The battles won in 91... much to do in 92... more of thee in 93... the open door in 94.... Barely alive in 95... in a fix in 96... and I realized that the laughter was not as humorous as it began...when GOD laughs, in the psalms... it is to mock the enemy...our idea of HOLY LAUGHTER is not the same as what I have heard in the field of battle where the TRUTH about "the joy of the LORD is my strength" gains a whole new meaning. The churches' worldly ways do not bring ABBA any joy whatsoever...I used to wonder and ask why all the time until HE TAUGHT me the meaning of the doctrines JESUS spoke of in Rev 2-3. So I wait and abide until HIS TIME.
The next Sunday pastor continued his message and I got one to.... not a cute jingo...but a pattern, an outline for the year ahead. or the last battle...take your pick...
So I listened and obeyed...as usual it means to write it down...now I have heard and read many words concerning what will be. All seem right in one aspect or another... let me rephrase this...after you ignore all the crap and crud that is unscriptural, new agey, self-promoting, irritates the MOST HOLY SPIRIT, and gives you the kreepy krawleys in the discernment nook in your spirit...it is all of GOD but needs to fit into the puzzle somewheres...and none of us got it all or know it all...yet...but soon....
So I wrote down what at first glance could have been a beginning to somebody's seven-part sermon.... But a lot of the brethren have seen seven parts/pieces/waves/moves/etc. and I know HE LIKES TO KEEP THINGS IN SEVENS.... So instead of asking why I asked what.... And I got a lot more than I was looking for...but now I know it is not yet all.... Let me explain... HE said it is not what the church plans or expects to do that in this next year...I get the impression that not to many actually took the time to ask HIM HIS OPINION.... But it isn't anything new I regret... [LORD, for what we are about to receive may we be truly grateful]
In Psalm 98 it states:
3 let them praise thy great and terrible
name; for it is holy. HIS NAME IS HOLY...and it is YAH....which means as
all of us know means "I AM"....but in the original HEBREW it can also mean
"I BE"....since before last Yom Kippur one verse, and one verse alone runs
through my being and it overrides almost everything else....
10 Be still, and know that I am God:
I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. If
like David we could say....
46 The LORD liveth; and blessed be
my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted. then we would probably
in no need for what GOD is about to do. If " we" spent as much time exalting
HIS MOST HOLY NAME as we spend on church stuff HE WOULD NOT HAVE TO DO
IT HIMSELF... but then is this all a big surprise to HIM?
David it seems knew more than we for
he also wrote...
13 Be thou exalted, LORD, in thine
own strength: so will we sing and praise thy power.
5 Be thou exalted, O God, above the
heavens; let thy glory be above all the earth.
9 For thou, LORD, art high above all
the earth: thou art exalted far above all gods. Then again this may be
something HE has awaited and planned for sense the foundations of the world
were laid.... and HIS LAMB was slain.
In Psalm 118 we have this WORD...
16 The right hand of the LORD is exalted:
the right hand of the LORD doeth valiantly.
17 I shall not die, but live, and
declare the works of the LORD.
18 The LORD hath chastened me sore:
but he hath not given me over unto death.
19 Open to me the gates of righteousness:
I will go into them, and I will praise the LORD:
This year HE WILL DO VALIANTLY....
SELAH bob in Miami